There is always a rainbow after the rain

5:40PM
We just went to a fight. And that was very bad that made me cried hard that I can no longer handle the pain. 😥😞
I am on my rest day and it is ver hard to be alone. My younger brother is in school so there is no one who I can ask for an assistance. I had a spotting. Maybe it is due to the mental stress that I had lately and I could feel contractions in the area where a 9 week baby grows. It looks like more of a human now and the size is like a grape.  He is on his way to a trip to Hong Kong and I was like, what the fuck? How could you afford to leave your pregnant girlfriend at the time she needs you the most? Well, moving forward, he is on his way on a 3-day vacation with his youngest sister. At first I got mad. He didn't even consult me about that but it was his sister who was working in Oman that time who simply asked him for his date of availability. She already bought a ticket for him without my boyfriend's knowledge. I told my mom about this matter and she simply told me to let him live his life. The plane ticket is not even my money in the first place she said and besides he is with his sister. Alright. I am still learning not to be too controlling. He is my boyfriend, not yet a husband for me to dictate him what to do. Oh gosh! I'm so emotional today. Well, he wants to settle things out. I was waiting for his apology and that is all I want and I'll be fine. We could have avoided further damages. I feel sorry for myself for having too much pride when in fact I'd rather lose the argument than to lose the one I love..

This picture was taken before the UST Paskuhan 2016. Credits to my pretty sister who took us a picture.
I already miss you babe.
6:40PM
He called me once again. We were both ok. It was really traffic he said. He told me his insights and how do he feel right now (he's not ok because he really do not want to go there. If he let his sister go alone on a trip and something untoward happens, he will be in conscience. No choice. The trip must go on. Flight by 10PM. I'm gonna miss him anyway. I understand if he could not pay me a visit anymore. It's getting late.

8:15PM
My phone rang. It was my boyfriend. "Babe san ka?" (Babe, where you at?) I said here at home in my room, eating my dinner. "Nandito ako sa labas" (I'm here outside) he said. I said alright. My heart filled with emptiness suddenly turned to happiness. He find time to visit me even if it was a buzzer beater. I went downstairs and opened our gate. He kissed me. He checked me and our baby if we are fine. I fully appreciate him for that. He placed his head on my lower tummy as if he could hear our baby 😄 The time was not enough for us. We had a very serious talk but in a very short span of time we were able to deal on how things will be going when the baby arrives. He promised to work harder in his new company for us. He was sorry for having my graduation to be quite delayed. We looked into each other's eyes and my eyes were filled with tears as it already fell down. He knew how I wanted to graduate to my course but for my future family, I'm ready to sacrifice. His phone rang and his sister  was already looking for him. They should have arrived to the airport atleast half an hour prior to their time of flight. Before bidding his goodbye to me, I could feel that he is very sad to leave me especially right now that I need him. I just have to look after myself (ofcourse) since I am alone at home. He gave me a chocolate and again, it's highly appreciated 😊😘😍

Twix chocolate. Sweet 😘😘😘
Till we meet again babe! I love you.
I know how much you love our child. I love you both.