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10:48PM
It's avail. Well, I am doing this here in the office.Hahahaha Offense: Browsing non-business related website. Well, I just went to a fight. I was overly reactive I think. I thought I was being ignored. I know that he was busy yesterday because he was hosting a fiesta at his home (that would probably mine too. Conjugal property, remember?) I just want him to check me once in a while. I think I am being so childish for what I acted. I was  wrong. He is supposed to be with me right now but he chose not to. He thinks that I might not welcome him when he knock on our door. Definitely not. I won't. He apologized to me for intentionally not talking to me since this morning. I even rushed myself to the hospital. It is not a work stress-related matter. When I am mentally and emotionally stressed, I tend to have a pain just below the abdomen (I think the baby cries from the inside. Awwww) I got a bleeding and I went to the ER in St. Luke's.  He was sorry for not checking me up how am I doing or even how is the baby inside? He admitted that he was wrong. I apologized to him for what I have said. They were hurtful things. Yeah. I tend to say such when I am emotionally overwhelmed. He asked me if I no longer love him. I couldn't answer straight. I love him so much. So deeply, so dearly. He got mad about me saying that I could not hold on to my promise that I won't leave him. Ofcourse I won't . Never will it happen. Now, things are going smooth. I promised to myself that he is the last man that I will love and definitely he is heaven sent to me who I will spend the rest of my life. He may not be the first man that I have loved but I will make sure that he would see me at my best when my past never see me in that state. I may not change him but I think I will just do my part as a loving partner to make him change his ways without him forcing to do so. He will change not because I want him to but in his own will. And now we are in the beginning of starting a new family, we make sure that we will be good parents and never let our past childhood experiences happen to our child as we want the best for him/her.

Engr. Rj Altamirano, once you have read this, I just want you to remember that it is only my mind that will hate you but my love for you will always be the same and the fact that I keep on falling in love with you, my boyfriend, my bestfriend, my best critic, my brother, sometimes a father, my travel buddy, running buddy, "kalokohan"buddy, the daddy of my child, my better half, my compplementary other, my future husband, God-given gift (09-08-2015), thank you for being the best man I ever had.  I love you so much that no one can break us apart.
Keep the love burning.